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That Time at the Dentist

Thursday we took the whole family to the dentist and it was hard. Really hard. But not necessarily in the way you might think.

J had the first appointment. We did this because we knew this was going to be hard. But we also knew that J had been a few times before, and we know that with J, the more times he does something, the better he’ll do. He’s been to a few cleanings before. He never makes it to the end, but usually the hygienist can get a little something done before he squirms to much or takes a full on anxiety attack.

Thursday went okay–at least us parents felt it went okay initially. In fact, before the dentist consult, I thought things were going pretty good. Not perfect, but not terrible. J handled the xrays like a pro–a huge improvement from the first few visits. He handled the large, awkward wing bite film cutting into his cheek. He handled the readjustments when it slipped. He held still when the pictures were taken. Both Steve and I were SO proud of him. Big steps here, people. I wanted to say to everyone, “look how awesome he’s doing!”

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This is J post xray bite-wings, and “LOOK HOW AWESOME HE IS DOING!”

And then came the scaling, and to the hygienist’s credit, she really tried her best. She was really patient with him, but he was just too squirrely and unpredictable to get much done. At that point we all decided to give J a break and consult with the dentist. But the dentist took about 15-20 min to get to us and by then J was totally done. He was a hot sweaty, anxious mess. After a quick consult, we found out that J had two cavities, and that we were going to be referred to a dentist at the hospital–you know–fully put under to take care of the cavities AND the cleaning. And at that point I almost started bawling my face off in the office because I’m going to have to put my child under full anesthesia and that freaks the heck out of me.

I don’t know why. I’m writing this a few days later and I’m realizing it’s not the end of the world. I’ve been put under twice in my life for surgery. Steve’s been under twice too. Kids go under all the time for tubes in the ears. But I think I was a little more vulnerable that day for a few reasons.

Maybe because it was because we work on anxiety every day and a lot of times the anxiety monster wins. Today it won. I get that he might need some sort of sedation for the cavities. Maybe laughing gas? Does he really have to go all the way under? We have tried pulling teeth twice at this office–the first time went fine–J handled the needle, tolorated the numbing and the dentist got his tooth out without any big problems. The second time, J was so paranoid about the numbing (the needle wasn’t the big deal–it was when he started to freak out about his cheek falling asleep that was the big deal) and it was an all out wrestling match to get the tooth out. We were all a little shaken up about that.

So yes, I get that he’ll need to have sedation–possibly be put all the way under for the cavities.

But the cleaning? I know he’ll figure it out. Heck, he figured out the bite-wing x-rays and was an all star over that AT THIS VERY VISIT.I know if we get this boy in the chair enough times he will learn how to get through it. He always does. He held his own urine for 7.5 hrs when we were potty training because he was so resistant to everything potty training and then he did it. At 3 and a half. And he’s been potty trained ever since. We had an all out stand off back in March about piano practice 45 minutes of me sitting on the piano bench waiting for him to finally sit down and do it. He’s practiced M-F ever since. He isn’t always happy about it, but he’ll do it. Bike riding, numbers, gymnasiums. That’s just how this kid works. That’s how he gets through all anxiety. He just has to push through it.

I know it would be the same way with a cleaning. We could spend 5 min in the chair at a time with a scaling. Then go home, and then come back next week and bump it to 8, then 10, and then the whole time. It would be SO good for his health in the long run. He wouldn’t have to wait annually or even longer for the “full meal deal” fully sedated in the hospital. I KNOW HE COULD DO IT. I’ve known him for almost 13 years now. And as I start to try to articulate this cleaning plan to them I realize what a ridiculous request this is for them. This is totally, 100% not financially viable to do it this way. I know at the end of the day this is a job and the reason we all work is to make money. I know they don’t “do disabilities.” Their office doesn’t have any of the resources for that. Steve asked about laughing gas and they don’t even have that in the building. I know this is also a private practice and they can service whomever they want. I don’t blame them. It’s true that they’re not equipped to handle him. It’s true J is hard. If he weren’t my son and I didn’t know him well enough, I wouldn’t want to try helping him or feel confident in helping him either. If I didn’t know anything about autism, I wouldn’t know how to treat him either. And the more I step away from this experience, the more I see this dentist is right. They are just not a good fit for each other and the dentist is being very responsible in referring us somewhere else.

But what I really want, and I don’t know if this is even possible, but what J needs is someone who is willing to let us “scream it out” for the first couple of times, who is willing to fail the first couple of times. That’s the hard thing about dealing with the world outside of our home. Many times it’s not feasible to let him scream it out. It can be unnerving, annoying, and most people out there know absolutely nothing about autism. We all share this world and there are social norms and protocol to follow, because let’s be honest, none of us are the same, none of us see the world the same way, and we all have to somehow figure out how to work and live and be with each other. That’s why the norms and protocol are there. We all have individual rights we want protected and honored. Sometimes they knock heads with each other. And giving and taking is just being a part of the community.

At the end of the day, my requests might be unreasonable. With this dentist they definitely are. No fault on his part. My requests might not be okay for anyone and that’s okay too. Of course, being a mother, I am biased and sometimes that clouds my judgement and that might include my judgement on dental procedures. In the end, hospital admission is what we might have to do, and if that’s the right path in the end, then it will be the best decision to make.

I came home, still really upset. After talking with my sister she let me know that there are lots of dental options out there, even pediatric dentists with beds to strap down children while they’re on laughing gas–Hannibal Lecter straight-jacket style–all in the dentist office. She knows because she’s been in these offices and her son saw 4 different dentists until they found the right one for him. He doesn’t have autism, but he has anxiety going to the dentist. As she said, “plenty of people have bonafide fears of the dentist.”

So I press on in my quest for the right dental procedures for J. I’ll look into the sedation dentistry offices here in Fargo (which in retrospect, that is probably the first place I should have gone. I probably should have done a LOT more research going into this. I guess I thought over the years J and the current dentist would just grow into each other. Which is ridiculous, because they see each other a good 20 min at most a year). I’ll probably go into each office and talk to the dentists face to face and see what they think and feel about the issue. I’ll ask if they’ve every treated kids with autism before. I’ll ask them if they really feel like hospital admission is the best option for the cavities, if they feel like they would be up to trying cleanings with us, or if they think that is both too much for them and J to handle. At the end of the day it comes down to the right fit and procedures for J. Sometimes I forget that with health needs (including dentist) you have to really research and shop around–really shop around. The health care professional might be great for your friend’s family, but not for yours. You’re doctor might be great for you but not your husband. Every dentist or doctor has strengths and weaknesses (like us all) and it’s my job to see who is the best for J and his needs.

Signing off for now–until the next installment of the dental saga 🙂

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  • Crystal

    My husband sees a lot of children as a dentist and there are a lot of steps in between having the kid hold still unsedated and general anesthesia. i recommend finding a board certified pediatric dentist and going the route of “oral conscious sedation with nitrous oxide.” Basically a medication and some gas. I will say that general anesthesia is awesome. I’ve been put under at least at least 8 times for medical/dental procedures and I’m shocked that the dental profession hasn’t made it “standard of care” for most procedures. It is expensive but no pain and no memory of the procedure means no trauma and phobia of the dental office. My friend shared this story on facebook so I don’t know where you live, but if you need a recommendation of someone to see and are in the Houston area we could help you.

    • sarahbeck30

      Crystal, thank you so much for your comment! Since I’ve never had experience outside unsedated dentist visits, it’s good to know that there are more options in between. We actually live in North Dakota so I’ll definitely check out the board certified pediatric dentists here. It’s good to hear that oral conscious sedation or general anesthesia are both good ways to deal with trauma with the dentist 🙂

  • kristen

    We see a pediatric dentist in fargo, Travis Olson, and we really like him. Gwen is a dental mess and our family dentist, who is amazing, referred him to us. She has been put under for crowns and he’s referred us to an oral surgeon to have teeth taken out, but I feel like I’m working with a team and everyone wnats the best experience and outcome for Gwen. You might have a consult with him and see. Good luck!

  • Katrina Scott Smith

    Our youngest has a fear of dentists (or more the procedures), we have had to have him sedated for cavity fillings twice now. (We’ve also had 2 of our boys sedated for tubes in their ears.) Yes, it’s super hard to let them go, put trust in others, just to get something done most of us can do without any issues. And to us, the most annoying thing is that it definitely costs more. But he tried all other options and decided not realizing what happened while he was out worked the best for him. He’s come out of it with praise and super proud that he did what needed to be done, and that is what is most important. Not that he did it a way most wouldn’t have to. I agree it would sure be nice if all professions (especially medical ones!) knew how to deal with people and all their different issues. I’m sure you’ll figure out what will work best for J. You are sure awesome and I love reading about your experiences with motherhood. Thank you for sharing.

    • sarahbeck30

      Katrina, I love to hear that your youngest was so proud to come out of his procedures! I think that’s the most important thing, and that’s the thing I want the most for J no matter what we decide to do. It’s nice to hear all the different options that work for different people. I think sometimes I get stuck on the thought that “there’s only one way to do things, and that’s the way ‘everyone’ does things”, that I realize that not everyone does things that way.

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